This Brigade. Wow. They are going to need some serious therapy when they get out of the house and realize that throngs of fans aren't going to be throwing thereselves at them.

Noun 1. delusions of grandeur - a delusion (common in paranoia) that you are much greater and more powerful and influential than you really are
delusion, psychotic belief - (psychology) an erroneous belief that is held in the face of evidence to the contrary
megalomania - a psychological state characterized by delusions of grandeur

A quote springs to mind, uttered by the broken Blanche DuBois.

"Whoever you are, I have always depended on the kindness of strangers."

Do they really think they are going to be the next big thing to hit the world. There's so much they want for free. There's so much that they think they deserve. For what? They went on a reality show to win $500K. They didn't do anything Earth-shattering to get to the end. Did they make Rachel and Brendon act like they did? No. All they did was fly under the radar. I'm still not seeing how they've done these amazing things that make them the BEST ALLIANCE in Big Brother History. I just don't understand.

And I also find it quite hilarious right now, with the way Enzo is behaving. He berated Ragan and Britney time and time again for acting the very same way he is acting right now. This is how he has acted after every competition he lost. Which is about 15, by the way. Enzo is SUCH a LOSER in the game of Big Brother.

I'm so glad that this season is almost over. I hope they get rid of the casting people that found this cast and start over.

Could I Care Less?

OMG. BBLand. These last few days have been like watching vultures circle over a struggling bunny rabbit clinging on to the last few minutes of life. The only difference is the HG's playing the role of bunny keep changing. I've lost interest in BB12. There's no one that I'm particularly rooting for.

Matt screwed himself over big time. He's said in both his DR's and to Ragan, that he's being shunned by the people who were his friends (Enzo, Hayden, and Lane). And he KNOWS that they have used him to get them this far and that they are now cutting him loose. So why Matt? Why would you continue to throw Ragan under the bus and share his house knowledge with the Three Stooges? And also, why are you rolling over and dying? For a Diabolical Super Idiot, I mean Genuis, you sure have given up quick. How about exposing the Brigade? Sure, some people might not believe you, but at leave give a chance for the seed of doubt to grow into a fruitful tree. Strike up an alliance with Brendon and Ragan.

Britney, poor little doe eyed Britney. WAKE UP! This is Big Brother. You TRUST NO ONE! Lane is playing you for a fool. He has absolutely no allegiance to you. You were so on to what was really going on after the POV comp. But no, you have to trust your "army" and you will be going to the jury house with a little "Friendly Fire" aimed your way by your "army." They will have you out the first chance they get. There's no reason for them to get rid of Brendon. They stand the best chance of winning if he and one of them is in the final two.

Ragan, stop with the "Inappropriate Zing Bot." It's not funny. And it's a real shame that you didn't believe Kristen until now about the boy's alliance. You pegged it completely. I just fear that it's far too little and far too late. And I'm really concerned how you are going to react once you get out of the house and realize the true depth of Matt's betrayal. It's going to suck for you.

The Three Stooges. Ugh. I'm so over "The Brigade." And the funny thing is, they've gone on and on about how they'll be the only alliance in BB History to make it from beginning to end in a hidden alliance. Well you won't. Joke's on you Boys! When you turned on your own, and booted Matt out of the alliance, then you severed your Brigade Alliance. Yeah, a new one was born with a new name, BG3D (lame), but it won't be the one that last until the end either. Hayden doesn't have an allegiance to either of you Enzo and Lane. He's got Final 2 deals with both of you.

And here's where I get to the point where I really don't care who wins BB12. I'm ready for BB13. This season was a HUGE bust! I'm hoping that AGP does better next season. There needs to be more diversity in the people chosen. These people are all like cookie cutter images of the roles that they were supposed to be.

I don't want to say it, but I'm going to. "I'm so over Big Brother."

How to Survive an ELE (Extinction Level Event):

Ladies and Gents, he's not only a physicist, he's also an expert at survival. Much like the roaches he called his fellow housemates. Brendon Villegas of Big Brother 12 is well versed in the act of survival. An Ice Age, A Nuclear Holocaust, A Massive Asteriod impact, Global Warming, and the Sun Dying don't stand a chance against Brendon. Nothing will bring him down or get him out of the Big Brother house.

This was my absolute worst case scenario. Brendon won the POV today. Matt will go up as the renom, and will be the first houseguest evicted during Thursday's Double Eviction Episode. And no, I don't have to be clairvoyant to forsee this future. The ONLY thing I see that would prevent this from happening would be Chimagate Part Deux. I think that there's about a 20% chance that Ragan will voluntarily exit. Given that he won't be on the block, I'd have no idea how AGP would handle that. That's the only thing I see happening that could possibly save Matt.

Now, given that Matt didn't receive any of the punishments during the POV comp, it's possible that he got greedy and took the prizes. If he did, then he probably deserves to go home because he couldn't have felt safe going into the comp. If he did not get greedy, then Brendon is just a super fast player and took all the punishments himself (The Chum bath, Shaving his Head, and the 24hr Handcuffs). If that's the case, then Matt got a raw deal, and it sucks he'll be leaving, but I'm really not that upset about it. I do hope that his exit speech is explosive and that he exposes the Brigade. But at this point, it would probably be moot because I don't see Brendon, Britney, and Ragan teaming up to get the Brigade out.

I can not respect the Brigade's lack of game play, using Matt to do all the dirty work and save their butts, and then cutting him loose this easily. It's just sucky game play that I have not enjoyed watching play out.

This week is basically planned out and will cease being predictable about 15 mins into the Live Show on Thursday (Almost 5 Full Days from now) when Matt is Evicted and the first HOH of the hour is crowned. Hopefully I'll get lots and lots done. I've got vacation days on Monday and Tuesday, so I may go catch a movie, or go on a day trip somewhere. It's nice having free time during the BB Season. Hmmm, what can I do?

Prove. Me. Wrong. Big. Brother. I. Dare. You.

Thoughts on this week? Sound off below.

Diamonds are a boy's best friend!

Yay! I'm super excited for Big Brother tonight. The look on people's faces when Matt whips out the Diamond Power of Veto is going to be priceless. I've got the same excited feeling that I had when I knew Jeff was going to use his Coup de 'tat.

In a perfect world, I'd love for Matt to choose Enzo as his renom. Enzo is useless in this game. Now I know that Ragan called Rachel a parrot, but if anyone is a parrot, it's gotta be Enzo. He brings nothing productive to competitions or strategy talks. All he does is repeat what the person he's talking to has just said. If I were in that house, he would be the one that drove me most insane. I don't find him funny in the slightest. I switch feeds whenever he's on if there's another option. Sometimes I will turn them off all together. Whenever he's eating he's smacking and it disgusts me. Even when he's NOT eating he makes that smacking noise with his lips when talking about other people and it really gets on my absolute last nerve. Really Enzo? Polly want a cracker? If you are reading this, listen to the next strategy conversation he's a part of. It'll go something like this.

Hayden: We've got to get Britney out.
Enzo: Yo. We gotta get that bitch outta here man.

And yes, he has said that verbatim. But Ragan and Britney are the only ones that spew venom.

But it's not a perfect world, and I think Matt is smart enough to know that if he picks one of the other Brigade members as a his renom, the chances of him winning the whole game are very slim. I really don't want him to renom Britney. I think his safest bet would be Kathy because he wouldn't be pissing anyone off. Then the Brigade stays intact. And his side alliance with Ragan and Britney stay intact. And HOPEFULLY, Brendon will be walking out that door next Thursday.

Britney, Matt, and Ragan definitely have the brains to go far in this game. And we've already had so many physical comps this season. I want the next few comps to be quizzes so those three can dominate the game. Those are my ideal Final 3.

Last night's show was insane. Rachel asked Ragan if his excuse for being so bitchy was because he was gay. Well Rachel, what's your excuse? And she insinuated that he is not a real man either because he's gay. But ... wait for it ... Rachel LOVES her gays! Rachel I have a strong feeling that once you are back in the real world, people of all sexual orientations will not love you. Oh, but I forget. You've had to fight for your survival in the game. No one else in the house has had to fight. No one else has had to rely on their personal game strategies or alliances to stay in the house. Because they aren't fighting. No one else has had to win POV to make sure that they don't get put up as a renom. Right?

But those fights were definitely good TV. It was the third time I had watched the fights, and each time it got better and better. Ragan was awesome at standing his ground and telling Rachel exactly what she didn't want to hear. When you are pushed and pushed and pushed, you get to a point where you break and snap. I think that is what has happened to Ragan. I've done it before. I've gone off on people like Ragan did. Do I regret it? No. NOT. ONE. WORD. But because Ragan reacts the way he has, that makes him vile and full of venom and poison. So I guess that makes me vile and full of venom and poison. Oh well. If you don't like me, that's fine, don't let the door hit you on the way out. Ragan is at a disadvantage because he's on national television. So people feel free to comment about how vile he is because he has human emotions, never once thinking about how people reading the comments may have been in similar situations as Ragan and reacted similarly. So when you are talking about Ragan that way, then you are talking about me, and other people in the world. And people may say I'm being hypocritical because of the way I've talked about Rachel. The difference is, Rachel was playing a character, she wasn't being herself. She was playing a role. To me, that makes her fair game. I am so thrilled that she is gone, and hopefully gone for good.

Enjoy the show tonight! I'm hoping for some major fireworks!

Bright New Day

Hello people.

So yesterday was a vortex of negative energy. From real life negative stresses, to BB negative stresses. I'm determined to make today a better day.

The first step in that consisted of an uninterrupted night's sleep. All was quiet on the hamster front. Gizmo and Brisby got plenty of zzzz's in last night. So that means PapaSyn did too. There was one moment before I went to bed where Gizmo barely went up to Brisby and Brisby freaked out and squeaked a bit. I think he's suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. Hopefully that will die down as he realizes that Brutus isn't there anymore. I'm cleaning out their home today to get rid of any traces of Brutus' scent. Hopefully that is when the mental healing will begin. The physical healing has already started. The wound on Brisby's stomach is looking much better, in fact it's not even noticeable any more. It's amazing how the animal instinct tells them exactly what must be done.

The next step consisted of checking the blogs to see what has happened in the BB House. Surprisingly the mood has changed in the house. I browsed the comments, and unfortunately, some people's negative mood has not changed. There is still a crusade to book passengers for the Brendon bus. So that let's me know where I won't be today.

In the BB House, I'm not liking what's going on with the Brigade. They are beginning talks of cannibalizing their own, namely Matt and Lane. I seem to remember them encouraging side alliances, and now that seems to be the downfall of Matt and Lane. I really don't like how they have used Matt to do their dirty work and now they are ready to cut him loose. It sucks, but it's the game. And I never ever thought I would be supporting Matt after his lie. But I guess Matt, Ragan, and Britney have been victims of circumstance and have become the true underdogs of this season. Unfortunately the circumstance comes from outside of the house. So I guess I have my favorites for the season now. Which puts me in the minority, only because it seems as if most of their other supporters no longer feel comfortable to come out and say it. I think if I ventured out into the internetverse I'd find more supporters. Ideally I'd like for Lane to branch away from the Brigade and a new four person alliance of Matt, Ragan, Britney, and Lane emerges. Enzo has been pathetic. I hate his strategy of throwing comps and then complaining non-stop about how bad he did. He doesn't deserve to be in the Final 4, and neither does Kathy.

It's odd how the push to bring people to Brendon's side has pushed people right over to Ragan, Britney, and Matt's side. It's so funny how things happen in this world.

I hope anyone reading this is having a good, positive day. I'm ready to leave the negative behind. Friday the 13th doesn't necessarily always have to be unlucky. :D

Out of respect to BBDish, I have deleted the previous post. It just didn't feel right personally. I think we got out what needed to be said. We purged it from our systems and I think we are big enough people to move on from that. *Hugs*

Also, if anyone reading could say a prayer for my sister's eldest step-daughter, Candace. She just had twins today that were taken by c-section because Candace had toxemia and one of the twins had an increased heart rate. The twins were born, one was 5lbs 11oz and one was 4lbs 9oz. One needed oxygen. After the c-section though Candace turned blue and they've called in a cardiologist to check her out. I would appreciate any prayers or positive thoughts sent their way.

Hell Week Part 2

Ugh, I want to ask if this day can get worse, but I know better than to tempt fate that way. But seriously. Thursday, August 12th, 2010, sucks!

Brendon won HOH.

And the hate fueled comments start rolling in. So original. While I'd love to give a rousing "FU!" followed with a certain finger, I'm going to resist that urge.

At least I know that I'll have some me time this week since my commenting duties will be limited.

It's just sad to see "regular" commenters chased off by the handful of hateful commenters.

That is all.

Sad Day :(

Well, today hasn't been a fun day. And this isn't related to Big Brother in the slightest except for it's relation to hamsters.

As I've mentioned a few places, I recently purchased 3 Fancy Russian Dwarf Hamsters. I brought them home on March 30th of this year. When I purchased them they were in the same cage and I observed them for about an hour to make sure that I didn't see any fighting. I was only going to get two of them. But one look at their cute little faces, and I had to have all three. On the way home I heard scuffling in their little cardboard box and heard quite a bit of squeaking. I was assuming that a fight had broken out because of the cramped quarters for three hamsters. When I got home, I quickly got them out so they could get acclimated to their new home. One bit me almost immediately and actually drew blood. I wasn't mad or anything, because I knew that they were stressed.

So, then I set about naming them. I knew that one was going to be Gizmo since "The Gremlins" was one of my favorite childhood movies. Another childhood favorite was "The Secret of Nimh". The Secret of Nimh is about a colony of genius rats that help move a widowed field mouse and her children from the fields that are being harvested to a safer part of the farm. The widowed field mouse was named Mrs. Brisby. And one of the guardians of the rat colony was named Brutus. So from that I had my three names picked, Gizmo, Brisby, and Brutus. The grey hamster immediately displayed signs of personality, therefore, he became Gizmo. After the biting incident, it was a no-brainer that the biter would be called Brutus. And finally, the smaller of the three was named Brisby.

Then began the fun, or so I thought. I was observing how they interacted with each other and I noticed that Brutus seemed to bully Brisby a bit. Nothing serious, just some squeaking arguments and brief boxing matches. They separated and went about their happy ways. After a few weeks these spats became fewer and fewer to the point where I didn't even see or hear them fight anymore.

A few months passed and all three had grown quite a bit since I had gotten them. Brisby, once the smallest, is now the largest. They all pack their jaw pouches full of food at feeding time. Things had been going pretty well until a few nights ago. A very loud argument literally woke me up as Brutus and Brisby had engaged in some sort of fight. Brisby is extremely vocal and will squeak loudly and fight until Brutus backed down. I thought it odd, but I let it go. The next night it happened again. Finally this morning, I was woken up at 630a after about three hours of sleep by the most serious fight yet. First, I was angry because I had had so little sleep. I tried to shrug off until another fight broke out. So I got Brutus out and put him in the smaller container I use for when I am cleaning out their home. I was hoping it might have been a sort of "Time Out" for Brutus. After about twenty minutes I decided to reintroduce him to the tank. He immediately began hunting for Brisby, all the while Brisby was scurrying trying to find a safer area. At this point I got Brisby out and put him in the smaller container. As I was looking at him closer I noticed a wound on his stomach. Then one near his ear. Then one on his back. Then another one on his mouth. It made me sick to think that I had not intervened sooner and Brisby had suffered all these injuries.

I was then left with a decision to make. One of the two had to go. Gizmo has always been passive and chill. But it was my fear that if Brutus remained, he would begin targeting Gizmo if Brisby was no longer there. My decision was almost made for me. But I was still struggling with it. My next dilemma came when I didn't know where I could take whichever one I decided to let go. I don't have room or another cage or tank that I could put one in. I tried to lie back down and get some sleep, but my mind and this decision wouldn't let me. I prayed that I would somehow make the right decision. So I waited until the pet store opened up and I gave them a call. I explained what the situation was and they said they would take one back and adopt him out. Since I feared for what would happen with Gizmo, I decided that the only choice was to return Brutus. So I put him in the pet container that I brought him home in and went to the pet store and turned him over.

It's really depressing because I had become attached to all three of them and their individual personality quirks in the four months that I had had them. If there is anything good about this, I did receive a bit of a sign when I returned home. And I do believe in signs, and I think this was God's way of letting me know that I had made the right decision. Underneath the door, I noticed that someone had stuck some sort of pamphlet. Enblazoned across the front of the pamphlet in bold letters read "Life in a Peaceful New World". It was a pamphlet from a Jehovah's Witness. I am hoping that for my remaining hamsters, Gizmo and Brisby, that it will indeed be a peaceful new world for them. I know little about this religion, but I'm grateful for the literature because of how it came at exactly the right time. I feel like this is going to help me come to terms with the decision. I am just going to hold on to the hope that Brutus will find a good home.

Anyway, I just wanted to share this with someone, and just get it off my chest. I'll leave you with some pictures of the first day that I brought these little guys home.



This is Gizmo and Brutus. Gizmo is the gray one, and Brutus is in the tube.



And this is Brisby.

Fightin' and Flyin'

The "fight-or-flight response", also called the "hyperarousal" or the "acute stress response", was first described by Walter Cannon in 1929.

His theory states that animals react to threats with a general discharge of the sympathetic nervous system, priming the animal for fighting or fleeing. This response was later recognized as the first stage of a general adaptation syndrome that regulates stress responses among vertebrates and other organisms.

I'm over the double standards. Each person in the BB House has dished it out at one point or another. Some do it to your face. Some do it behind your back. The difference is how you are able to dish it out, and how you are able take it.

I see it like this. Rachel and Brendon have been confrontational since almost the beginning. The rest of the houseguests have basically just taken it. Except for Kristen who fought back. And that's where the double standard started. I think that Britney and especially Ragan have been pushed to their breaking point. Britney has always been catty, but it was mostly kept between her and Monet until Monet was evicted. Then she dialed it back to make sure she stayed in the house.

There's only so much picking, so much holier-than-though attitudes, so much bullying that one can take before they snap. I think Ragan has reached that point. I don't blame him at all. He has repeatedly mentioned how much he was bullied in high school. And I can imagine that the ones that were bullying him were the jock / athletic types (i.e. Brendon). I've been there and done that. I'm a grown man now, and I don't have to take it. And neither does Ragan.

The difference is that in the real world, you have the option to flee. In the BB House, fleeing is only an option for a limited amount of time. So, fighting is the natural response.

Rachel approached Ragan multiple times to "talk." He told her multiple times he wasn't ready. So finally when she asks again, he decides he will talk to her. He explained his reactions to people who are overly emotional. He explained that he sees every confrontation in the house has a common denominator, and that is Rachel. So naturally, being the drama queen she is, she apologizes for making their time in the house so miserable and storms off in a fit of tears, playing to her backyard audience like an Oscar winner. So like the "neanderthal" that he is, Brendon immediately moves in to defend his "woman's" honor. He verbally attacks Ragan and Britney while looming over them as if he was Godzilla attacking a small village. And then he stops mid attack to correct Ragan's pronunciation of neanderthal. WHO DOES THAT?!?!? I burst out laughing even before Ragan and Britney did. That was hilarious. (Oh, and Brendon, just an FYI, either pronunciation is acceptable in the English language.) I would have laughed in his face too. At that point, Ragan and Britney had enough of it. Because yet again, Brendon jumped all off in that kool aid without EVEN knowing what flavor it was. And then Brendon took it one step further with his apparent obsession with Britney's fiance, Nick. What is that?!?! And why the need to personally attack someone's family? That's a line that you don't cross. I lost any and all respect for BB9's Joshuah when he brought Amanda's deceased father into an argument. It was disgusting. Family and friends aren't in the house to defend themselves, so you don't bring them into the argument.

Brendon is worse than Ragan and Britney. Rachel is too with all of her antics, facial expressions during POV meetings, attacking people, bullying people, etc. So why is it that only a handful of people are seeing this? Could it be like my "Mean Girls" alliance of Michelle in Indiana and MsFitz suggest? Are there really two sets of feeds out there?

In regards to the house being boring once Rachel is evicted. Really? When the Brigade has to start targeting each other? You think that's going to be boring? I disagree.

A final message to some of the commenters that have been telling people that our way of thinking is wrong. STOP IT! You are more than welcome to have your opinion. So am I! You aren't going to change how I feel. Stop trying. It won't get you anywhere.

My Name is Syn928, and I'm a Mean Girl!

Call me mean. Call me hateful. Call me whatever. Just don't call me a "Brenchel" fan! And yes, that's me up there in the pic. With my BFF's Ragan and Britney. And a horrified Rachel looking on.

And yes. I am "A little bit Dramatic." lol!

I'm not going to apologize. I love Ragan and Britney. And I really don't care that they are "mean girls." They are hilarious.

That is all.

Train Wreck

train wreck n. a disaster or failure, especially one that is unstoppable or unavoidable; a disorganized, problematic, or chaotic person or thing; an incongruous situation.

What is there not to love about this face?



Warning: This is going to be harsh.

The more I see Rachel, the more I realize what a sad human being she is. She is playing a role. Not the role of Rachel Reilly, aspiring chemist trying to play the Big Brother game. It's the role of the quintessential Vegas Cocktail Waitress Party Girl. Her role from the beginning has been "The Party girl with big boobs!" Personally, I think she is a disgrace to just about all women.

She is the kind of woman that I would go my entire life trying to avoid. I find it laughable that she is 26 years old. If this is what Vegas is, then remind me never to travel there. Afterall, Rachel boldly proclaimed tonight "I AM VEGAS!" To all the citizens of Vegas, I am so sorry.

It's just really disheartening to watch this living train wreck. Because deep down, she knows the Big Brother game, and if she wasn't such a buffoon, she'd be really good at it.

I'm genuinely concerned with her mental stability once she gets out of the house and realizes that she wasn't the self-proclaimed "Smart Jordan" of BB12. Rachel, Jordan has more charm and integrity in one hair follicle than you will EVER have in an inch of the plastic that makes up 80% of your body. I hope you enjoy the 5 minutes of fame that you might on a very slim chance get out of this.

Oh Brother, Where art thou?

Soooo, my first BB12 Blog post-meeting the houseguests. Underimpressed and Underwhelmed don't seem to cover it.

I can't decide if we were just spoiled by the BB11 houseguests or what. I knew going into this season that the BB12'ers had huge shoes to fill. So far I don't think they have. I mean there was Chimagate, Ronnie the Rat, Jordeff, Neuro Michele, The Widows Godderz, Man-in-a-banana-suit, etc. Are there any characters like that in BB12? I haven't found one yet. We are being forcefed "Brenchel" (gag) and "The Brigade!" At this point, I think I'd rather eat BB Slop. For real. (Plus that would probably help with my eating better plan I started on July 8th, premiere night. Down 9.4 lbs in three weeks if any of you are keeping track.)

So, let me take a look at the houseguests individually.

Annie - I thought Annie had huge promise as an All-Star BB player in her pre season interviews. Then she got in the house and basically lost it. I think being the saboteur had a lot to do with it. She was definitely the BB10 Brian of BB12. Too hard, too fast, a bazillion alliances. Alas, I miss Annie a bit.

Monet - She definitely wasn't as annoying as I thought she would be. A "Mean Girl" definitely. But different from the "Mean Girl" Britney is. I have a sneaking suspicion that Monet was just mean. I think this was her downfall.

Andrew - Completely Socially Awkward. Andrew reminds me a whole lot of BB11 Michele. Neither were trying to be weird, they were just being their normal selves. Unfortunately for both, normal to them translates to abnormal to most of the rest of the world. His behavior automatically brought the "saboteur" cloud over his head. Even after the saboteur was revealed! I think he's a nice guy, and I have to give him mad respect for being able to remain true to his religion in this hamster cage. I'm sure his religion has literally been his saving grace. Unfortunately for Andrew, his behavior almost ensured that he would have an early exit. His latest antics at the POV ceremony and then lashing out at Kristen have sealed his fate. He would have never been anything but a third wheel with his Brendon and Rachel alliance anyway. We'll be seeing you walk out the door tonight Andrew. Sorry man.

Rachel - Wow. If anyone has annoyed me pre-season and post-entering the house, it would have to be the Vegas Cocktail Waitress / Chemist. Pretty much everything about her gets on my nerves. The one thing I have to give her props for is that she does know this game. She's got really good skills at seeing through other people's lies and manipulations. She totally had Matt pegged with his "Don't tell anyone I volunteered" story. She's pretty much the less likable version of BB11 Laura for me. I won't be sad to see Rachel go, for her own mistake of being so overtly in a showmance and creating the distance between herself, Brendon, and the other houseguests.

Brendon - Whiner. He just really doesn't get it. Who's fault is it that everyone is after you Brendon? I hope you are looking in the mirror. His constant whining about everyone gunning for them really gets on my last nerve. It wouldn't get on my nerves so bad if people gunning for him had no basis. But they do have a basis for going after him. And about 98% of that was created by his own doing. Moron. For someone so "Smart" he sure is dumb.

Hayden - Okay, so I've gotten over my anger at him stealing my trademark profile pic. Actually, I think Hayden is a pretty cool guy. I thought he would really screw up by being the 1st HOH. I was very pleasantly surprised at how he handled it. I think his strategy of laying low is going to pay off well for him. Brendon, take note, this is how you play BB if you are going to be in a showmance. I really like how Hayden has aligned himself with The Brigade and with Kristen. But he's genuinely nice to everyone in the house. I really think that Hayden is going to make it far in this game.

Kristen - Thy name be Wallflower. Wow, I've never seen a contestant fly so far under the radar that it seems like she's not even a houseguest. I've liked watching her emerge the past week and a half. I love how she's a no nonsense kinda lady. When she called out Britney for the lie that Rachel made up, I thought it was great. And then when Andrew basically attacked her, she didn't back down from that either. I don't like that she sometimes gets classified as a "floater." I don't think she is in the slightest because I think a floater is someone that has allegiances to no one and float from the person in power to the next person in power and so on. Kristen is basically a non-player until she has to. She's pretty even no matter who is in power. I think Kristen has the chance to make it far in this game as well.

Kathy - Unlike Kristen, Kathy is the classic floater. I wanted to like her too, but I don't really. I think that she will be used by the other houseguests until she's no longer useful. I do like that she went with her gut on casting her vote to evict Matt over Monet. But she's already showed that she will fail at every competition. I don't respect that kind of game play. I think Kathy will at least make it to Jury, but I think that's about it.

Britney - Oh what a catty bitch. But oh, how I love a catty bitch. She's not catty with just girls, she's catty with everyone. And her particular brand of sarcasm is awesome! I share that trait with her. I'm glad that we've got see how hilarious she can be without Monet around. I've really really enjoyed watching her this week. It doesn't hurt that I think she is the hottest girl in the house. L-U-V her! She's very perceptive too. I'm hoping that she and Ragan have a meeting of the minds and make it far in the game. And I love her love/hate relationship with Lane. They are really funny together.

Lane - He's one that has been very under the radar too. His gameplay is almost akin to Kathy's though. The only difference is that I find his delivery and comedic timing funny. I really didn't appreciate a certain "F" word he used one night. I hate it when that word is used because it has been used against me from bullies growing up, and it just puts me back into a dark place that I really don't want to go back to, ever. And yes, I know I'm being hypocritical right now because I know Jeff and Jordan both had said it also. I'm guessing the difference is that I didn't know Lane when he used it. I had already felt like I knew Jeff and Jordan when they did, and I knew that they meant it just as a word like scumbag or douche. I didn't know Lane well enough when he said it, and his physique just reminded me of a bully. I'm still not 100% sure he didn't mean it in the way that means being gay is a bad thing. The jury is still out with me for Lane.

Enzo - He definitely doesn't annoy me as much as I thought he would. I do wish he'd grow the eff up though. Farting and throwing gra-nades is not something that a grown man does for jokes ... 24 hours a day. I definitely see him as the chink in The Brigade's armor. I hate how he smacks his lips around when he's talking about someone. His personality is too big for me. I don't see him outlasting the rest of The Brigade. I don't really see him being useful in the game either. I think Enzo would be the one that I would be the least ambivalent about when he leaves the house. Unfortunately, I think he is well liked by the rest of the houseguests, and he's done well not to anger anyone, so I think for that alone, means he will make it pretty far.

Ragan - I really like me some Ragan. I think he's a true scholar of the BB Game. But I also think he is making some stupid mistakes. #1 being his unwavering trust of Matt. I can't believe he doesn't see through Matt's act. It's really hard to watch play out on the feeds, because I think Matt will be the one to destroy Ragan's game. I don't even see Ragan making it to Final 4. Matt will shrug him off like a bad habit. For his trust of Matt, I've had to back away a bit from the Ragan bandwagon.

Matt - Hmmm, I wonder if I've ever disliked a houseguest more than I dislike Matt. I think not. I find the lengths that he is willing to go to reprehensible. Karma is a bitch for a reason. You don't put things like that out in the universe without expecting something bad in return. I really don't care if his wife is okay with his lie or not. I feel personally manipulated by him. I went on the search for "Stacy's Story" the website that Matt made about his wife's condition. I went as far as spending nearly an hour researching the disease that his wife supposedly ailed from. For that Matt will NEVER have my vote for anything. There's one thing being in a game manipulating the people you are playing with. It's totally another thing manipulating hundreds of thousands of viewers. He is disgusting.

Brenchel - Yuck. I'm so over CBS shoving them down our throats. They are in the position they are in because they have isolated themselves since the first week. I'm very over them, and was over them pretty much an hour into the live feeds when they first went live.

The Brigade - The bravado this group shows is insane. I really can't wait to watch them self distruct.



In closing, it's weird for me that I don't have a favorite yet. No one has really "wowed" me this season. I hope that BB12 really starts ramping up tonight. I would like to be able to finally root for someone in this crazy game.

Thanks for taking the time to read folks! Enjoy the Live Show Tonight!

For MsFitz

MsFitz, I'm so so sorry for your loss. When my Golden Retriever, Max, passed away almost two years ago, someone posted this poem for me, and it brought me such comfort. I hope it does the same for you. Hugs!

~ Syn





THE RAINBOW BRIDGE POEM

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Big Brother Application

So, as a Big Brother fan anxiously awaiting the arrival of the new houseguests, I thought it might be fun to fill out the same application that they do in order to get on the show.

I've removed the questions pertaining to specific identity details, sorry Identity Thieves. Other than that, if I was truly applying for Big Brother, this is how I would answer the questions.

This will probably give you a lot more insight about me than the previous post did. So, here we go:

(5) Relationship/Marital Status (Circle one and answer questions as applicable)
SINGLE

(8) What is the highest level of education you’ve completed? (Circle one and answer questions
as applicable)

BACHELOR'S COLLEGE DEGREE
Degree(s)/Major(s)? MARKETING
Dates attended: SEPT 1997 - DEC 2001

(10) Are you now serving, or have you ever served, in the military (U.S. or otherwise)? If so, please describe which branch of the military, your serial number, highest rank, and when and where served. If you’ve left the service, when were you discharged and why? Was it an honorable or dishonorable discharge? NO

(11) Are you a professional performer within the entertainment industry? If so, what do you do? NO

(12) Do you have any acting, singing or performing aspirations? If so, tell us your wishes and goals. I AM A VERY DRAMATIC PERSON AT TIMES, AND I’D BE LYING IF I SAID I WOULDN’T WANT TO BE AN ACTOR. IF THAT OPPORTUNITY CAME UP I WOULD DEFINITELY TAKE IT.

(13) Have you ever appeared in any television programs or films or movies or commercials or advertisements of any kind? If so, please provide details and describe when you made such appearance(s). I WAS IN A 30 MINUTE ADVERTISING SHOW ON A LOCAL NETWORK FOR THE REAL ESTATE TEAM THAT I WAS A PART OF. THE PREMISE WAS TO SHOWCASE HOMES FOR SALE IN THE AREA. I ALSO APPEARED IN A BRIEF COMMERCIAL SHOWCASING THE REAL ESTATE COMPANY I WORKED FOR AND OUR SUPPORT OF THE UCP TELETHON. BOTH OCCURRED IN LATE 2008.

(14) Have you ever been arrested, charged with a crime, and/or been subjected to disciplinary charges of any kind (whether through a private or public entity)? If so, please describe the circumstances of the arrest(s), and the charge(s) and/or accusations (include dates and locations). Were you convicted or disciplined, and, if so, in what way? NO

(15) Have you ever had a restraining order issued against you? If so, tell us about it (include dates, city & state). NO

(16) Have you ever had a restraining order issued against someone else? If so, tell us about it (include dates, city & state). NO

(17) Have you ever been involved in any litigation? Are you involved in any pending litigation? If so, tell us about it (include dates). NO

(18) Are there any nude or other revealing or compromising images of you that are available publicly either through the Internet, video or otherwise? If so, please describe and explain. NO

Section II: Family & Lifestyle
(19) Please list any children’s name(s) and age(s): NO CHILDREN

(20) Regardless of your marital status, describe your ideal romantic partner: MY IDEAL ROMANTIC PARTNER WOULD HAVE TO BE FUNNY. I BELIEVE THAT LAUGHTER IS AN ESSENTIAL FACTOR IN SUSTAINING A HAPPY AND HEALTHY LIFE. OBVIOUSLY ATTRACTIVENESS WOULD PLAY A BIG PART AS WELL. I TEND TO BE MOST ATTRACTED TO WOMEN WHO ARE JUST YOUR BASIC GIRL NEXT DOOR TYPES. I’M NORMALLY MORE ATTRACTED TO BRUNETTES, HOWEVER I’VE DATED MORE BLONDES. A GREAT SMILE AND BEAUTIFUL EYES ARE USUALLY THE FIRST THINGS I NOTICE.

(21) Describe your relationship with your mother. I AM VERY CLOSE TO MY MOTHER. SHE’S MY ROCK AND SOMEONE WHO I KNOW WILL TAKE CARE OF ME FOR AS LONG AS SHE POSSIBLY CAN. WE ARE A LOT ALIKE IN OUR PERSONALITIES. SHE’S SURVIVED A LOT IN LIFE AND I WILL ALWAYS ADMIRE HER FOR OVERCOMING THE ODDS. I AM AND WILL ALWAYS BE A “MOMMA’S BOY” AND THAT IS SOMETHING THAT I WILL NEVER BE ASHAMED OF.

(22) Describe your relationship with your father. MY FATHER AND I ARE ALSO REALLY CLOSE. HE IS PROBABLY THE MOST CARING AND GENTLE MAN THAT I’LL EVER HAVE MET. I WROTE IN HIS FATHER’S DAY CARD THIS YEAR THAT HE WAS “AN INSPIRATION NOT ONLY AS A FATHER BUT ALSO AS A MAN” AND I MEANT EVERY SINGLE WORD. IF I TURN OUT TO BE HALF THE MAN HE IS, THEN I’LL BE DOING GOOD.

(23) What is/are your favorite food(s)? JUNK FAST FOOD. LOVE CHEESEBURGERS AND FRENCH FRIES. LOVE ITALIAN FOOD. LOVE MEXICAN FOOD.

(24) Do you smoke? If so, what do you smoke and how often? NO

(25) Do you drink alcohol? If so, how often do you drink and how much? NO

(26) If you drink, how often do you get drunk? How do you act when you get drunk? NEVER BEEN DRUNK IN ALL MY 30 YEARS

(27) What are your thoughts on religion? I AM A CHRISTIAN BUT I WOULDN’T CONSIDER MYSELF A RELIGIOUS PERSON PERSE. I BELIEVE THAT IT IS UP TO THE INDIVIDUAL TO DETERMINE THEIR FAITH. I AM PERFECTLY CONTENT SITTING ON TOP OF A MOUNTAIN, JUST ME AND GOD. I DON’T NECESSARILY FEEL THE NEED TO CONGREGATE IN ONE PLACE OF WORSHIP. I TEND TO BE JUDGMENTAL IN PLACES LIKE THAT BECAUSE I’M WONDERING WHO IS THERE FOR THE MESSAGE AND WHO’S THERE FOR THE APPEARANCE. AND SINCE I WAS RAISED THAT JUDGING PEOPLE WASN’T MY PLACE, I TRY TO AVOID THOSE SITUATIONS. I DO FEEL A SPIRITUAL CONNECTION TO GOD, SO IT’S HARD FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND AGNOSTICS AND ATHEISTS. BUT I ALSO DON’T KNOW MUCH ABOUT OTHER RELIGIONS AND THEIR BELIEFS. I’M OPEN MINDED TO HEARING ANYONE OUT ON THE SUBJECT AS LONG AS THEIR GOAL IS NOT TO CHANGE MY BELIEFS.

(28) Are politics important to you? How often do you vote? NO, POLITICS AREN’T IMPORTANT TO ME AT ALL. AND I KNOW THAT IT’S DANGEROUS TO WALK AROUND THE WORLD BLISSFULLY UNAWARE OF WHAT IS GOING ON IN OUR GOVERNMENTS AND WHO IS IN CHARGE OF MAKING OUR LAWS. BUT IT’S NEVER BEEN SOMETHING THAT HAS INTERESTED ME IN THE SLIGHTEST. I USUALLY ONLY VOTE IN THE PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION.

(29) Have you had any particularly interesting occupation(s) in your past? If so, tell us about it/them. PROBABLY THE MOST INTERESTING SITUATIONS I’VE BEEN IN OCCURRED WHEN I WAS A TELEPHONE OPERATOR. YOU KNOW, DIRECTORY ASSISTANCE AND “0” OPERATORS? I WORKED IN A TELECOMMUNICATIONS COMPANY THAT PROVIDED OPERATOR ASSISTANCE. I WAS IN THAT PARTICULAR DEPARTMENT FOR NINE YEARS AS BOTH AN OPERATOR AND IN A SUPERVISORY POSITION. THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE WILL SAY TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE ONLY A VOICE ON THE OTHER END OF THE PHONE LINE ARE UNBELIEVABLE. THEY WILL BE RUDE, YELL, CRUDE, IT’S CRAZY. ONCE I WAS ON A CALL AND THE CALLER THOUGHT I HAD THEM ON HOLD AND THEY COULD NOT BE HEARD. THE CALLER AND HER … FRIEND … HAD OBVIOUSLY JUST FINISHED, UM, EXPRESSING THEIR LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER, AND HE WAS TALKING ABOUT HIS, UM, SIZE NOT BEING UP TO PAR, AND SHE WAS LETTING HIM KNOW THAT IT WAS. I QUICKLY GOT THEM THE NUMBER FOR THEIR PIZZA DELIVERY COMPANY AND DISCONNECTED FROM THE LINE. GUESS THEY WERE HUNGRY.

(30) Do you have any pets? If so, please list their name(s) and type(s). I DO, I RECENTLY GOT THREE RUSSIAN DWARF HAMSTERS NAMED BRISBY, BRUTUS, AND GIZMO.

(31) Are you a vegetarian? Do you have any food limitations (e.g. allergies, religious, etc.)? NO, I’M NOT A VEGETARIAN. I’M NOT ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING THAT I KNOW OF. HOWEVER, I DO NOT, AND WILL NOT EAT ANY KIND OF SEAFOOD. I AM NOT A FAN AT ALL. IF YOU WANT TO SEE GAGGING, THEN PUT A FRESH PLATE OF STINKY SEAFOOD IN FRONT OF ME. ON SECOND THOUGHT, SCRATCH THAT, I KNOW HOW SADISTIC BIG BROTHER CAN BE.

(32) Have you ever lived with roommates? If so, tell us about it. NO. I DON’T THINK I COULD TOLERATE ROOMMATES (IF THERE WASN’T A CHANCE AT HALF A MILLION IN THE END). I THINK I MIGHT HAVE A MILD CASE OF OCD OR SOMETHING BECAUSE I DEFINITELY THINK THAT THINGS HAVE THEIR PLACE AND I GET UPSET IF MY THINGS GET MOVED.

(33) What is your favorite TV show(s)? I’M A BIG TV ADDICT, SO I’LL JUST MAKE THIS A QUICK LIST. BIG BROTHER (OBVIOUSLY), TRUE BLOOD, GREY’S ANATOMY, WIPE OUT, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, THE GOOD WIFE, PARENTHOOD, LOST, THE VAMPIRE DIARIES, ONE TREE HILL, REBA, GOLDEN GIRLS, DESIGNING WOMEN, FRIENDS, ROSEANNE.

(34) What is your favorite movie(s)? I’M ALSO A BIG MOVIE ADDICT. I’LL JUST LIST THE MOVIES I COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER. MEET JOE BLACK, HALLOWEEN, THE SCREAM TRILOGY, BRING IT ON (YEAH I SAID IT), HITCHCOCK’S THE BIRDS AND REAR WINDOW, ANY COMIC BOOK MOVIE, MOST VAMPIRE MOVIES (LOVE UNDERWORLD), AND INTERESTINGLY ENOUGH LOVEY DOVEY MOVIES. I DON’T LIKE MOVIES THAT MAKE YOU WANT TO GO JUMP OFF A LEDGE BY THE TIME YOU REACH THE END.

(35) What kind of music do you like best? Favorite artists? I GENERALLY LIKE MOST MUSIC. MY FAVORITE KIND OF MUSIC ARE SONGS THAT TELL STORIES WHICH MEANS THAT I AM INDEED A COUNTRY FAN. FAVORITE ARTISTS WOULD BE TIM MCGRAW, FAITH HILL, LADY ANTEBELLUM, CARRIE UNDERWOOD, KELLY CLARKSON, CREED, DAMIAN RICE, ALICIA KEYS, BLACK EYED PEAS, EVANESCENCE, MOBY, JAMES TAYLOR, JIM CROCE, MAROON 5, PINK, SHERYL CROW, TRACY CHAPMAN, AND TO BE TOTALLY EMBARASSING, PAULA ABDUL AND ACE OF BASE (HEY I WAS A KID OF THE 90’s).

(36) What magazines do you read? I’M A BIG COMIC BOOK GEEK WHICH WOULD QUALIFY AS A MAGAZINE I GUESS. I’VE BEEN READING THE X-MEN COMICS SINCE 1990. OVER THE YEARS I’VE PICKED UP FANTASTIC FOUR, SPIDER-MAN, WONDER WOMAN, SUPERMAN, BATMAN, BUT MY MAINSTAY HAS AND PROBABLY ALWAYS WILL BE X-MEN.

(37) What is your favorite color? Why? I REALLY LIKE THE COLOR GREEN BECAUSE IT’S NOT EASY BEING GREEN, BUT IT REALLY BRINGS OUT MY EYES.

(38) Do you belong to any affiliations or organizations? NO

(39) Do you have any body art (piercings, tattoos, etc.)? If so, please describe them. NO

(40) What are your favorite sports to play? To watch? I’M NOT ATHLETIC IN THE SLIGHTEST AND CAN’T RECALL SITTING DOWN AND WATCHING AN ENTIRE GAME OF ANYTHING. I CAN JUST FIND BETTER THINGS TO DO WITH MY TIME THAN THAT.

(41) What are your favorite activities? I’M LIKE PERMANENTLY ATTACHED TO MY COMPUTER. MY FAVORITE GAME OF ALL TIME IS THE SIMS 2. I DON’T ACTUALLY PLAY THE GAME THOUGH, I JUST CREATE THINGS FOR IT, WHETHER IT BE SUPERHERO COSTUMES, 3D MESHES OF OBJECTS AND ACCESSORIES, OR HOUSES. IT IS DEFINITELY MY CREATIVE OUTLET. I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH MY FAMILY. I LOVE DRIVING, AND I DON’T EVEN HAVE TO HAVE A PARTICULAR DESTINATION IN MIND. I LIKE SPENDING TIME IN NATURE LIKE IN THE MOUNTAINS CLOSE TO MY HOME.

Section III: Medical & Psychological
(42a) Have you been treated for or suffered from any physical or mental illnesses (other than common colds) within the last ten (10) years? NO

(43) Have you ever sought mental health counseling in any form? If so, please provide details. NO

(44) Please list any allergies you have (medications, food, hay fever, dust, etc.) and your current treatment for them (if any). THE ONLY ONE I CAN THINK OF IS THAT THE CINNAMON STUFF THE DENTIST USES TO CLEAN YOUR TEETH IRRIATES MY GUMS.

(45) Have you ever been diagnosed with, or treated for, alcoholism or any other drug-related addiction? If so, please provide more details, including how long you've been in recovery, if that's the case. NO

(46) Do you have a temper? How often do you lose your temper? What provokes you? I HAVE BEEN KNOWN TO HAVE A TEMPER. I DON’T LOSE IT OFTEN, BUT WHEN I DO, I BASICALLY SNAP BECAUSE I’VE BEEN LETTING THINGS GET TO ME WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING. STUPID PEOPLE AND INJUSTICE PROVOKE ME.

(47) How do you deal with anger? I’VE NEVER BEEN PHYSICALLY VIOLENT WITH ANOTHER LIVING CREATURE, BUT I CAN PUNCH THINGS (WALLS, PILLOWS, ETC). I TRY TO NOT LET THINGS GET ME TO THAT LEVEL THOUGH.

(48) How do you deal with someone who intimidates you? GENERALLY I’M NOT INTIMIDATED BY OTHER PEOPLE. I THINK THAT EVERYONE PUTS THEIR PANTS ON THE SAME WAY AS ME, ONE LEG AT A TIME.

(49) When was the last time (if any) you hit, punched, kicked, or threw something in anger? Please provide details. SADLY ENOUGH, IT WAS JUST LAST SATURDAY, AT WORK. PART OF MY JOB REQUIRES CUSTOMER COMMUNICATION VIA THE TELEPHONE. ANOTHER PART OF MY JOB IS THAT I TEND TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE INCOMPETENCE OF OTHERS. IN THIS PARTICULAR SITUATION, SOMEONE HAD TOLD THIS CUSTOMER, WHO’S TROUBLE I WAS ASSIGNED TO FIX, THAT THE TROUBLE HAD ALREADY BEEN ISOLATED AND STEPS WERE BEING TAKEN CARE OF TO REMEDY THE TROUBLE. SO WHEN I CALL THE CUSTOMER AND EXPLAIN THAT I’M IN THE BEGINNING STAGES OF WORKING HIS TROUBLE, HE GOES OFF!!! SO I WAS IN A SITUATION WHERE I WAS HAVING TO PAY FOR SOMEONE ELSE’S STUPIDITY. AND THE FACT THAT THE CUSTOMER WAS A RELENTLESS PRICK DIDN’T HELP MATTERS MUCH. THEREFORE WHEN I HUNG UP MY PHONE, I DID HAVE A BIT OF A TANTRUM AND I SLAMMED THE PHONE DOWN SEVERAL TIMES, CRACKING THE STAND (THAT I PURCHASED IT WASN’T COMPANY PROPERTY) THAT MY PHONE SITS ON. I IMMEDIATELY REGRETTED IT.

(50) What are you afraid of (e.g., heights, flying, etc.)? GREAT HEIGHTS, LIKE AT THE TOP OF A CLIFF MAKE ME NERVOUS. IF I’M TIED INTO A SECURE HARNESS I DON’T THINK I WOULD HAVE A PROBLEM. I LOATHE SPIDERS, WORMS, AND ROACHES.

Section IV: Your Chance to be Creative
(51) List the three adjectives that best describe you. OUTSPOKEN, SARCASTICALLY FUNNY, LOYAL

(52) If you could hold any political office, what would it be and why? VICE PRESIDENT, YOU GET THE TITLE, BUT WHAT DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO DO?

(53) What is the accomplishment you are most proud of? LIVING 30 YEARS WITHOUT DISAPPOINTING MY PARENTS.

(54) What are you most ashamed of, either now or in your past? THAT I TALK ABOUT BEHIND THEIR BACKS WHEN I DON’T REALLY KNOW THEM AT ALL. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO MIGHT TURN OUT TO BE YOUR FRIEND ONE DAY.

(55) Describe your perfect day. WINNING BIG BROTHER … OR THE LOTTERY.

(56) Who is your hero and why? MY PARENTS BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THEY HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN THEIR LIVES, YET THEY STILL CHAMPIONED TOGETHER AND TACKLED OBSTACLES AS A TEAM. AND ALSO FOR THEIR VALUES.

(57) List three (3) items you would take with you into the Big Brother house if allowed and why. MY iPOD BECAUSE MUSIC CAN TAKE ME OUT OF STRESSFUL SITUATIONS AND CENTER ME. MY COMPUTER AND IT’S PROGRAMS BECAUSE I WOULD NEED A CREATIVE OUTLET. A PRIVATE BATHROOM.

(58) Have you ever been to a nude beach? If so, what was it like? NO

(59) Finish this sentence: “My life's motto is…” BE YOU AND STAND UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN, AND DON’T TAKE ANYTHING OFF OF ANYBODY.

(60) What would you do if “Big Brother” made you famous? WHATEVER I COULD TO MAKE MY FAMILIES LIFE BETTER.

(61) What types of people would you choose to have living with you in the “Big Brother” house? OTHER PEOPLE LIKE ME WITH SIMILAR INTERESTS.

(62) What types of people would you NOT choose to live with you in the house? RUDE PEOPLE WITH BAD MANNERS AND HYGIENE.

(63) What would irritate you about living in a house with about a dozen other people? NO PERSONAL SPACE. MY OCD TENDENCIES WOULD PROBABLY DRIVE ME INSANE.

(64) What do you think would be the most difficult part of living in the “Big Brother” house? Explain. NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO MY FAMILY. I COUNT ON THEM TREMENDOUSLY TO TALK OVER BIG DECISIONS WITH THEM AND I VALUE THEIR INPUT. BEING ALL ALONE WOULD BE SCARY.

(65) Which past “Big Brother” houseguest did you like the most? The least? Explain. PROBABLY THE MOST FAVORITE WOULD BE DAN OF SEASON 10. I REALLY LIKED HIS GAMEPLAY AND THAT HE WAS A GENUINELY NICE PERSON IN THE HOUSE. MY MOST FAVORITE DUO WOULD HAVE TO BE JEFF AND JORDAN OF SEASON 11 THOUGH, I’D LOVE TO BE IN THE HOUSE WITH THEM BECAUSE THEY JUST MADE ME HAPPY. MY LEAST FAVORITE WOULD HAVE TO BE RONNIE OF SEASON 11. I REALLY DESPISED HIS GAME PLAY AND THE JOY HE TOOK IN THE MISERY OF OTHERS.

(66) Do you have a strategy for winning “Big Brother”? EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED AND THINK ON MY TOES.

(67) Aside from the cash prize, what do you hope to gain from winning “Big Brother”? JUST BEING ABLE TO GET INTO THE HOUSE AND LIVE TO TELL ABOUT IT, WHILE RETAINING MY DIGNITY.

(68) A recurring theme on “Big Brother” is “expect the unexpected.” How would you handle “the unexpected?” Are there any possible twists on the show that would be particularly challenging for you to handle? I GENERALLY DO EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED. I’M NOT A PRECOG, SO THERE’S NO WAY FOR ME TO PREDICT THE FUTURE. THE ONE CHALLENGE I THINK WOULD BE DIFFICULT FOR ME WAS THE SEASON 8 TWIST WHERE YOU HAD TO LIVE WITH AN ADVERSARY. I TEND TO HOLD GRUDGES.

(69) Is there anything else you'd like to tell us about yourself and why you think you'd make a great Big Brother participant and housemate? Try to differentiate yourself and be creative! I’M GENERALLY A GOOD PERSON ONCE YOU GET TO KNOW ME, BUT I DO TAKE A WHILE TO WARM UP TO PEOPLE AND REALLY OPEN UP TO THEM. I’M REALLY KIND OF PURE IN A SENSE THAT I DON’T DRINK, SMOKE, DO DRUGS, OR SLEEP AROUND WITH PEOPLE, YET I’M NOT A PRUDE EITHER. I’M A BIT OF A CHAMELEON AND HARD TO FIGURE OUT. I DEFINITELY DON’T FIT IN ANYONE’S BOX OF HOW I SHOULD BE.

(70) Have you ever applied for and/or appeared on any other reality TV shows, dating shows or game shows? If so, please provide details and dates. NO

Will a quiz reveal what you need to know about me?

REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:


NOW

Is your hair up?: Yes ... it's called bed head.

Is your phone right beside you?: Nope.

Do you have a bf/ gf?: Nada.

Do you wish you were somewhere else?: I'd love to be on a beach somewhere.

Do you have plans for tonight?: Nope.

Are you wearing makeup?: Um, no.

Are you wearing chapstick?: No to that too.

Are you cold?: It's Alabama in June, what do you think?

Are you tired?: Not really, but I should be.

Are you excited?: Not at the moment.

Are you watching t.v.?: Nope.

Are you wearing pajamas?: Yes.

Who's the last person you IMed?: Co-Worker and Friend

Who's the last person that called you? My sister.


PAST

Anything you regret? Not telling someone my true feelings for them.

Ever lied?: Yes.

Ever stuck gum under a desk?: Gross, no.

Ever spit at someone? Dude, I've got manners, that'd be a no.

Ever kick something living?: OMG, no!

Ever had your nails done?: Nah, but I probably wouldn't be opposed to a manicure.

Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: No. Maybe coughed I guess.


LAST WEEK

Had any plans last week?: Just some pool time and a grill out with my family.

Who did you see most last week?: My parents and nephews.

Was last week interesting? It was basically the same as every other week.


TODAY

Have you cussed?: Nope.

Have you yelled at someone? Not yet, but it's early.

Have you gotten mad at someone? Not that I remember.

Have you cried? No.

Have you called more than 3 people?: No, I hate talking on the phone.

Have you IMed more than 3 people?: Not today because I do that all day at work ... and it's normally work-related.

Have you eaten anything gross? Ew, no.


SPILL YOUR GUTS

Q. First thing you did this morning?: Opened my eyes.

Q. Last thing you ate?: Taco Bell

Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks? Big Brother 12 of'course!

Q. What's annoying you right now? A weird pain in my clavicle of all places.

Q. What's the last movie you saw? In the theaters? Iron Man 2

Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?: No. Been there, done that, got the T-Shirt.

Q Where is the last place you went?: Um, duh, Taco Bell ... What? They deliver where you are from?

Q: Who is the last person you called?: My parents.

Q: Been cheated on?: lol, yeah, see: the T-Shirt I got from the long distance relationship.

Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? Probably.

Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity): Love.

Q: Do you wish on stars?: No.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of: Nah, I'm lazy that way.

Q: When did you last cry? Hmmm, it was a movie, but I can't remember which one. It was happy tears though.

Q: Do you like your handwriting? Yeah, I don't think it's bad. It's not like I frame it or anything though.

Q: Are you a friendly person? Generally, but I take a while to warm up to new people. It's like I have to figure people out first. And I firmly believe in "Burn me once ... And you no longer exist in my world." Probably my great character flaw. But I'm usually a good judge of character. I always go with my gut feeling.

Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world? Hmmm ... Probably ... aren't we all in some way or another?

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night? Mine ... the bestest mostest comfortable bed in the world!

Q: What color shirt are you wearing? Blue ... on the Navy-ish side.

Q: Do you have any pets? Yep, I've got three hamsters, Brisby, Brutus, and Gizmo.

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets? They are flannel with hints of cream, tan, rust, and brown.

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night? I was watching reruns of Big Brother 11 on CBS.com! The after-Jeff episodes ... :(

Q: last person you talked to : My Dad.

Q: When is the last time you saw your dad? Tonight.

Q: Look to your left: Okaaaaaaaay. Almost expected a ghost or something.

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep? Once.

Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder? No, but I've had friends cry on mine.

Q: Song that makes you cry? Beth Nielson Chapman's "Child Again". Reminds me of my Grandmother in the last years of her life.

Q: Are you a normally happy person? Generally yes, but I'm also sarcastic so it doesn't always seem that way.

Q: Is your self-esteem low? It could probably be higher.

Q: What color are your eyes? Green.

Q: Long or Short Hair : Short at the moment, but I've been known to go long.

Q: Current Music? "Boom Boom Pow" by the Black Eyed Peas via iTunes radio Star 104

Hmmmm, that was interesting. I wonder if that gave you any insight?

What up Homies!?!?

OMG, BB12 is upon us. Less than 30 days from now our lives will be over, and we'll be glued to our computer and television screens waiting for the next blow up (or hook up) in the BB House.

I am soooooo excited for it to begin. BB11 was one of the most entertaining seasons I've ever watched since I started watching during BB7. The Producers are going to have a truly difficult time finding people as controversial and loved/hated as they did with BB11. (Yes, Chima and Ronnie, I'm looking at you.) I hope that they find people as interesting if not more. But I gotta say, I don't think they'll ever top my faves of Jordan and Jeff. Seeing those two together literally brought a smile to my face on a daily basis. And the Amazing Race basically ignored them, so I wasn't able to get my fix of them with that show. Here's hoping they'll make a surprise appearance as comp hosts at some point during BB12. Yes folks, The Jordeff love still lives on.

Another thing that I'm super excited about is the unique privilege of making the banners for BBDish again this season. After everything that Carolyn gives us, it's the least I can do, and if there's anything that I can do to help her be able to focus her energies elsewhere, like giving us amazing updates multiple times daily, then I'm game. Making the first one of this season really made the fact that BB12 is upon us hit home. And I really can't wait to see what the new not-so-2005 (her words folks, not mine, looks great to me in either form) face lift looks like on BBDish. If you haven't heard of BBDish, then I have no idea how you found me, but be sure to check it out: BigBrotherDISH

But, what I'm MOST excited about is getting to experience BB12 with the most amazing people in the world. Carolyn, Genie Sea, Jun (my dishmance!), GaYToR, Blue, MsFitz, WendyLady, JulieB, Michelle in Indiana, Rubyrooo, Tarheel~Teresa, Ilissa, Marci, Jaggers, KScooterfox, Reneep, MaryE, .... OMG, there's just so many! Basically anyone who's posted at the Dish or here, full of awesomeness. In all honesty, I think all of you is what made BB11 so much fun!

To get ready for BB12, I've been rewatching the BB11 episodes on CBS.com. The drama, the fights, the Jordeff, wow, so much fun reliving those moments. Even Jessie was more tolerable this time around, knowing what lay in store for him with Coup d'Etat. I've watched almost all 30 episodes over the last few days. Go watch 'em before they disappear! I've also fired up that flashback machine to experience some of the awesome moments of BB11. If you don't have the feeds, be sure to get them from Carolyn at BBDish, who I'm sure will be posting links to get them any day now. You won't be disappointed. Combined with the awesome posts including times of noteworthy events from BB Dish and the Flashback Machine, you won't miss a thing.

Here's some things I don't want to see this season:

The Next Ronnie: Ronnie is the only houseguest that made me want to physically punch my screen. I don't mind people that play hard and fast, but someone who does that, and thinks that they are the ultimate gamer and know more about the BB Game than any of the other houseguests in the history of BB. Someone who thinks that they are cooler than they are or EVER will be. Ugh ... Ronnie = Do Not Want!

The Next Chima: The last thing BB12 needs is another ungrateful, cackling, self-centered harpie like Chima was. I really think that's all that needs to be said about her.

No More Jessie: He's had two shots. That's MORE than enough.

Nasty Hook-Ups w/ No Substance: Let's face it, there are plenty of sites out there that one could visit to see the nastiness that was seen via Jessie and Lydia of Season 11, April and Ollie of Season 10, or James and Chelsia of Season 9 (Sorry, Chelsia, but I know you kick yourself over this more than we do!). A cute little love story with respect for one another would be awesome again, like we had with Jordeff, but I'm not holding my breath.

Houseguests that stay up until 6-7-8am: C'mon guys, some of us occassionally have to get up for work early in the mornings. Can we cut if off at like 2am or 3am? Please?

Giving in to HG's Threats: OMG, this is a biggie. No more threats and blatant disregard for house rules from the houseguests without consequences. When BB calls you to go to the DR, go. When BB asks you to put your mic on, do it.

Have-Have Nots: One of the things I hated most about BB11 besides Ronnie and Chima (dead horse? lol) was the Have Nots. I'd rather see the old food comps back. Or a new one. I think that the Have Nots was a fun thing to try out, I just didn't think it worked.

Nasty Natalie: Ugh, what killed me most was the chewing with her mouth open, yelling at us in the DR, and above all, not taking showers. She was the epitome of disgusting. I'm hoping for houseguests with more manners and hygiene than Natalie had. Even 15% more would be better. Just sayin'.


So, what else can you expect from Synful Ramblings this summer? I seriously hope to have many more blog posts than just the two I had last season. I'm already half way there, w00t! And yes, I will indeed be posting a blog or more giving a sneak peek into the life of the man behind Syn928 (and great, I know I just opened that one up for GaYToR).

So strap in everyone and let's get ready for what I hope will be an extremely exciting summer!

~ Syn