So, Russell attacks Jeff and Jordan again. Same old story. Different day. But Russell got particularly nasty with Jordan. Calling her “Fatty,” etc. Jordan reached her breaking point and attacked him right back. Obviously, this is exactly what Russell wanted. But do I blame Jordan? Nope.
Jordan has admitted to Jeff that she was overweight as a child. As a former “fat” kid myself, I will tell you that the torment that other children can put you through when you aren’t perfect can truly damage you on a psychological level. It can truly skew your body image for the rest of your life. This much is evident in how Jordan focuses on her weight so much. And now she’s been told by two people in the house that she is fat. She’s on national television and being told she’s fat. I can not imagine what that is doing to her mind. Lydia also called her a “ho.” And now Russell was basically insinuating that when he was talking about her and Jeff going to the HOH together. To this day, fat comments make my blood boil. But I’m not in school anymore. I don’t have to worry about getting expelled or sent to the principles office. I can go off on people. Jordan is not a child anymore, and she can do something about the people that attack her. That’s why I don’t fault her for getting in Russell’s face. She showed him just how big of a man he really is. He’s such a big man, I’m surprised we even see him on the astro turf in the backyard. That’s how big he is. I just wish someone would come around a squash him like the little bug he is.
But then, what I really really really do not understand, is that people are talking about Jeff and Jordan as if they were the bad guys in this situation. What? “Jordan shouldn’t have got in his face and egged him on.” “Jeff shouldn’t have responded to Russell.” Even as far as "Why is Jordan so upset?" Probably worse is that people were saying that Russell should continue this "cookie dough" strategy. What ... the ... @#$@? Um seriously folks? Jeff and Jordan should have just laid down on the ground and let Russell walk all over them? Russell has proven to be relentless in his personal attacks on people. We saw what happens when you don’t engage him. Anyone remember Ronnie? Ronnie didn’t engage him. And Ronnie locked himself up in the HOH for 48+ hours. With people like Russell, you can’t back down and let him attack you. At least in that house you can’t. I said it earlier today, it’s all about the Fight or Flight Response. You can not flee in that house. You are stuck. So I’ll ask you. Would you fight?
And STILL Russell and other people bring up Jeff’s threats to go after people’s families. O … M … G I guess this is part of where my frustration lies. Here I go comparing Jeff and myself again. Wait for it … Jeff has a sarcastic sense of humor. Syn928 has a sarcastic sense of humor. Jeff and Syn are often misinterpreted. People don’t always know how to deal with that kind of humor. And it tends to get the sarcastic one in trouble. People! Jeff was J-O-K-I-N-G about going after people’s families. Please get over that. Let’s not beat it into the ground. I’ll repeat from the last blog, if CBS and BB thought for a second that it was a serious threat, Jeff would no longer be in the house. The legalities behind that would be too much for them to take on.
And too (lol, that’s a BBism), Jeff and Jordan fans get accused of making Jeff a saint. Well, if you mean being able to control yourself from thrusting your fist literally through someone’s head makes you a saint, then by all means, tell me who I should write to get Jeff sainted. Would that go to the Vatican? Do I agree with everything that Jeff and Jordan have done or said in this game? No. And you would have to be ridiculous to think that. Especially with their remarks about Michele. I think they have let other people’s views of Michele get into their minds so they see things with that in the back of their mind. Michele does act weird at times. Her constantly saying “I don’t remember” casts a huge shadow of doubt on her. Her passive nature could also be her downfall. While I think it’s an insane mentality to have, Michele not leaving with everyone else when Russell enters an area will also cast doubt on her. She does continue to talk to Russell despite his continued attacks on her. So I can see the others not understanding that. And I don’t think anyone is denying that she’s socially awkward in some situations. That still doesn’t give them a right to call her crazy. But am I going to turn my back on Jeff and Jordan. Um, again, that’d be a “No.”
Please don’t get me wrong. For people who do suffer from mental illness or whatever the politically correct term for that is. I know that calling someone “crazy” would be just like my reaction to someone calling someone else “fat.” I just have personal experience with the “Fatty” comment so emotionally, that hit me much harder. I’m not excusing anyone’s comments here. I’m just trying to shed some light on my personal observations and why I think some people react the way that they do.
Okay, moving on along. I don’t think this was particular Jeff/Jordan hate, but people were wondering why Jeff wasn’t comforting Jordan when she was crying. I’ll try to explain this the best way I know how. For me, being a shoulder to cry on is something that I’ve had to do frequently. For some reason, my female friends feel comfortable enough with me to discuss their man troubles. Which I don’t mind in the slightest, I’m glad that they have someone to vent to. I’ve also had to see my sister’s go through man troubles over their own while I was growing up. As the “baby” brother, there wasn’t a lot I could do about it. But I took those opportunities to learn that the way some men treat women, is in fact, no way to treat a woman at all. It is how I was raised. And that is something that I will never EVER apologize for. (Which I’ll get to in a bit.) I once had very strong feelings for a woman, who just happened to be engaged. I never acted on these feelings. After they were married though, she and I remained friends. He did something extremely stupid, and of’course, I was the one she cried to. The rage I felt for this man was intense. He truly did not see exactly what he had in her. And had he been there at the time, I honestly don’t know that I could have controlled myself. I think perhaps this is what was going through Jeff’s mind today when Russell was attacking Jordan. He knew that if he didn’t stay firmly planted on that mini-fridge outside that he would have been going home … or to jail. I think that Jeff truly has feelings for Jordan, and I have to hand it to him, being able to control himself during that situation took a whole lot. I was ready to call up the Army and have them air-drop me into that backyard. I had like an “Ally McBeal” moment where I could picture myself flinging that elliptical machine at him. Seriously. But Jeff was 100% right. He had 500,000 reasons not to attack Russell. So kudos to him. I think if he had gone to comfort Jordan at that moment, it would have only made him more angry.
Okay, what got to me the most today? That would’ve been a comment about how someone said saying “Russell shouldn’t be talking to a woman like that” was sexist. Are you freakin’ kidding me? I understand about women’s rights and everything, but seriously. It’s not worse that Russell was speaking that way to Jordan, rather than to a man? That logic doesn’t make sense to me.
chivalry and chivalrous are used to describe courteous behavior, especially that
of men towards women.
So does that make me a horrible person? That I think it’s wrong that a man shouldn’t talk to a woman that way? People who throw out loaded comments like that drive me insane. Along with the ones who comment and say “I don’t see how anyone can defend Jeff and Jordan.” Let’s put cameras on you 24 hours a day and see how you come off to the viewing public. There was one person to walk the Earth that was perfect. That’s it. I’m sorry y’all, it’s just stuff like this that really gets to me. I’m a bad person because I can defend Jeff and Jordan? When a little over a week ago virtually everyone was singing Jeff and Jordan’s praises. What? What kinda of Twilight Zone have I walked into?
